Astray

For once I wanted to be wrong
For this one day I wished I could not feel this way
For now that moment hasn't come
I still feel lost

Lost in my own thoughts
Lost in this fear
Fear of change

And today all has came into a toll
All came crashing down
My heart turned into a stone
It's weight is pulling me down

And it won't be you to save me
You can't fix this wound
All that is left is me
Alone to try and mend it

All that is left to me is rage
Your presence disturbs me
All that is left to me is disgust
How can you still be able to love me?

I try to barely put a smile
And fake that I am fine
But this Shit is unbearable
And I can't take it away

I try to seek a solution
But this clouds my mind
So I pull the last of my aces
And I go full retard.

I write what's on my heart
Maybe to ease the pain
Maybe to find that ray of hope
That will make this go away

But what are you now to me?
I see nothing more than a friend
Has the love gone away?
And we're heading to the end of the line?

Don't know what to make of this
Don't know how to solve it

All that is left to me is rage
Your presence disturbs me
All that is left to me is disgust
How can you still be able to love me?

Tell me, how can you still be able to love me?
When I think that I don't feel the same?